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Monday

A Friend

Daddy ask me print his maintanence agreement 2day,so wake up liao straight go on com print liao,scare later forget ma...however printer 'ba gong' got prob canot print le...so i on9 browse web + msn + ms lo,etc etc... found a nice poem :--

A Friend...

Accepts you as you are

Believes in "you"

Calls you just to say "HI"

Doesn't give up on you

Envisions the whole of you(even the unfinished parts)

Forgives your mistakes

Gives unconditionally

Helps you

Invites you over

Just "be" with you

Keeps you close at heart

Loves you for who you are

Makes a difference in your life

Never Judges

Offers support

Picks you up

Quiets your fears

Raises your spirits

Says nice things about you

Tells you the truth when you need to hear it

Understands you

Values you

Walks beside you

X-plain things you don't understand

Yells when you won't listen and

Zaps you back to reality

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Sunday

Headache!!!

I wake up ard 10 2day,juz prepared my breakfast my bf call liao,so i quickly changed n have my breakfast,juz on time wen he arrive im done...i went to his house 1st de,like usual,den i feel headache(zhen de hen tou tong) so i lay on his bed,wen his parent back frm morning tea,he ask frm his mum for pain-killer,den i slp liao...wen i wake up ady 3pm,so hungry leh,v tought wan cook noodle can liao but unfortunately his house juz out of stock,so hav to go out eat liao lo...i had a pataya rice (not so good) i miss the pataya rice i had b4 in TARC hostel,i told my bf bout tis n oso my life at there...tell him alot of stuff dat i experience b4...den ard 4 v bought lunch for his sis den head home(his home)...he say wan upload photo to his friendster so v start on9 lor...i on my friendster oso,he wan c my password coz i dun wan tell,he say so unfair i noe his but he dun noe mine,however he dun really care lar,he rarely on9 de...v chit chat awhile den i go home le...reached home ard 7 liao,take a bath,eat dinner den watch TV lor....wanted to on9 at 9 but dad n bro using com liao,no more com for me so have to wait...bout 10.30 bro wan slp le...i chat with jeff n yen awhile...jeff told me he 'hen fan', he hav a chance to study oversea,he not sure wan to accept or not...japan,quite a nice country oso...den now im here with my blog...2day is a peaceful n happy day...even i felt a bit not well 2day,im glad my bf was here with me,taking care of me...if my ms dear on9 maybe wil chat awhile with him den go slp de lo...i think 2nite i wont b too late ba...

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Saturday

Missed Mock Trial

Tis is a same old day,my life is boring…everyday wake up chiong ms(beside training,do quest,noting else)..den vic on9 train n chat,den he off9 wan go out n I too off9 coz too lag,no choice,go watch TV den hav a nap,afterdat is evening liao,again chiong ms,chat with frens n write my blog…tis minutes,no 1 here to tok with me,my family went out,I usually wont follow out on Saturday nite except family gathering,n I do not hav a lot of fren in my msn list,most of dem not on9 at tis time,later ba vic may on9?not sure yet coz sumtimes he went out til very late,no bus home so he stay at his fren house de,den I wont c him for dat nite liao…actually 2day I wanted to go out,go c my fren mock trial(is a activity in HELP university college),but 2day my bf nid to work,my dad got golf tournament n my mum,cant aspect her to drive me there coz she dun noe the way,wan drive out the car oso cant coz my mum wan to go out later…I wonder how the mock trial goes?should be good ba,coz min lee n lih choon ma,dey always do their best n their best is really good de,hehe…2day my mum nag me again,say I dun go exercise,hehe,I dun like sweating de,n my sport skill r sucks!!!hmm…mayb I should start sum exercise liao,remember the pants(RM 189 nike leh)can wear it for jogging n biking ba,dun ask me go play any ball,last time I at skol got play awhile volleyball de,always get hit by ball(=P),badminton oso got play for sumtime but me always miss the ball de,ping pong oso the same,last time play with lih choon dey all,v mostly chasing the ball,haiz…im sport noob,wad to do…dats y I rarely go exercise,so embarrassing leh…hope later vic on9 ba,so sianz no 1 to tok with…dats all for 2day,bye….

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Friday

Rainy day

2day wake up straight chiong ms liao...hehe..long time din really play ma,im a ms chionger oso like my ms dear,wad to do...i help vic collect seal meet,i juz collected enuf he on9 but not for long coz he got clas at 1pm...b4 he off9 i ask bout sum oss quest dat he haven done,den help him collect those quest item while i doin mine...too bad he off9 not long later my place start raining liao...sob...cant play lor must off com!!!so i went to watch TV(noting to watch actually,juz browse ard) n get sumting to eat,den went back to my room,my sis slping liao,c her slp so nice i oso take a nap lo but not for long...ard 5.30 i wake up take a bath den chiong ms again...cont collect quest item for myself n for my ms dear...vic got on9,v hunt 2gather for awhile den ard 8 he wan go eat dinner n i nid to log out ms awhile coz my bf here...v find sum sport car pic to update his friendster,found a ferrari360 model for his background...webpage load so slow,he keep asking 'hao le mei' make me wan scold him liao,no patience,so i ask him do sumting else 1st lor,so he start drawing(kind a ok lor his drawing,better den me atleast) ard 11 he go home liao n me here with my blog...later wan cont chiong ms again,hehe...my sis abit angry with me coz i keep using my dad com but she oni can use the other wan(v both like to use daddy com de,tis keyboard more better ma)

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Thursday

So sianz...

hmm...wad special 2day?noting leh...smae wake up ard 9,go chiong ms awhile den ard 12 go eat brunch den read newspaper n novel(ghost story)...my sis back,she say ms kind a laggy so i din play,bside my clericgal is in elnath fm,no orbis scroll liao wan to w8 ms dear on9 pass thing to him so the more i dun wan play 1st...so sianz go take a nap lo...eh,awake frm nap cant find my hp,still a bit blur so i go take bath 1st den i find my hp liao...OMG,me old liao i left it at living room no wonder find the whole room oso din get it lar,is on the sofa,hehe...found hp sms my bf den do my facial ,mask liao(few day din slp well got panda eye le,sob) Yummy 2nite dinner is spagethy,delicious!!!i love spagethy de...watch awhile tv come chiong ms liao but vic haven on9 so i play my sindit(kana bully leh but dun care lar) feel boring play throwing star so go on my sis begginer to play,lved 1 lv vic on9 liao...he go write his blog 1st n me oso here lor,write my blog...dats all for 2day...tata

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Wednesday

Normal boring day

i wake up late 2day,mayb bcoz v r fine now i felt relieve so felt tire for tis few days...i wanted to chiong ms but my dad hav a guess here so cant use com til evening...my sis din go to skol,she sick,v both reading comic n novel in our room...ard 3pm i go watch CSI:NY den take a nap,kind a long nap,hehe...wake up ady pass 6,had dinner late n my bf came but din go out coz weekday v usually stay at my house watch TV de..he tire after work ma...den ard 11 he go home n now im here writting my blog n msn with my ms dear lor..later nid try ms,last nite wan play but got prob,dun noe now how liao,if canot nid re-dl leh,very long de coz my com run so slow(sob)...

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KLCC..Tire but Happy oh

The day of gathering with my A-level’s best frens n to celebrate my fren birthday…I wanted to take bus de but I wake up late liao so I wait for daddy to send me there,however nid go damansara 1st(lolx,my fren who live in Kepong cal,say she juz wake up),im juz ard there so go fetch her den take LRT frm KL Central to KLCC…v had brunch(breakfast + lunch = brunch) at Kim Gary,exp leh but dun care lar…my bf sms me say ‘dun angry lo I am sry’—im not sure he say to me or sum1 else coz he nvr use eng sms me de but it is in eng font,so I doubted n ask him lor..after few sms he do say sry n ask me forgive him,he say cal me at nite to tok(now waiting his cal le)…but my mood stil bad,I siao liao!!i went in nike shop bought a RM189 long pant!!!(hehe..goin to lie to mum the real price)den ard 6pm v take LRT go home,oh man forgot cal daddy so take back LRT turn back to other station(pass by b4 reach KL Central)my leg killing me (long time din wear highheel ma) summore LRT so pack stand for 1hour in there,so tire leh…the 1st time I went out spent so much n juz a meal with a pant plus transport fee RM200+ gone liao… mum sure kill me if she noe!!!hmm,I wonder wad time he wil cal me n wad he wil say…wah juz typed tis line oni he cal liao…he cool down liao n said sry le but haven really hav a gd tok coz on phone ma(exp),but atleast now v ok le so gd lor,im happy liao…2molo wen he come I nid to hav a gd tok le,dun wan tis to happen again!!!(I wil crazy de) oh,I noe y he send in eng liao,not frm him de is his fren,so ge po,take his phone wen he not ard to ask for my forgiveness but he make it worst,haha,but nvm lar he juz wan help us,I forgive him…coz bcoz of the msg I oni send msg to him,v oni did tok.

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Monday

Alone with Novel n Comics

I woke up late coz last nite slp very late..chiong ms awhile oni coz start keep lag out,sianz so i log off lor…Den go read novel n the comic(diao yu wang) liao…even im reading,my mind couldn’t stop thinking bout me n him,those word he said n i rebuke keep wondering in my mind,tear dropping wen I cant control my feeling…2day I take off the ring(ding qing xin wu),wan to tell myself learn to let go if really breakup later..i wanted to change my life style but I’m not doing it bcoz he wan me to change,is bcoz is time to change to b better,but it nid time,I nid to do step by step,tis is wad I planned but he dun noe coz he nvr wan to listen,he nvr wan to giv me the chance to prove..mayb I wil juz b a failure for another time but im goin to try my best,however he may not b here anymore,2day he din contact me..v both had such a wonderful time b4 but now v had so much quarrel wen he start feeling I should hav a work frm now,coz in his view get a job after graduate is too late to gain exp…I noe he wanted the best of me n for me,I noe wad he asking is for my gd,but at the same time he pushing to hard on me,he make me more pressure n more harder to step forward…maybe I’m very childish n he is more mature bah…but wil a mature minded person keep comparing his love with her frens?wil a mature guy keep critices her every act n words but did not b please wen she did sumting gd?i may not b mature with the way of my tinking,I noe I hav a lot to b improve,however his unsupportive broke my heart!!!wen I nid his cheer he shown up months late(wen I goin to hav exam)yah he did msg me n said gd luck on dat 1st day of the exam but for too late coz I nid it months b4 the exam…A big warm hug frm him which I did not get it even I told him!!!

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Sunday

Crying

wake up help my dad with sum printing stuff...den my bf come n v go to his house...rain,cant go out,no choice so v take a nap while waiting for the rain to stop...den v go IOI Mall,want to watch superman return(not bad leh)...v not happy...v argue...he say v nid time to tink if v shld stil b togather,since v always not happy being togather...he said a lot of negative ting bout me...but round up the main issue dat make all tis happen is i did not find a part time job for tis holiday ba...he said im so 'da xiao jie,hen nan fu shi'...he oso not perfect but i ady try to acept y he cant?y he juz cant giv me sumtimes to make things happen?y he hav to giv me so much pressure wen i really nid to make myself lesser pressure?y he oni saw the bad ting but dun c the gd site in our future?y v c things so differently?do v really nid to break up liao?i dun wan it to happen...i really dun!!!im cying liao...2nite wont b able to slp le...hungry but no appetite(barely eat for whole day)...shld i really giv up on tis relationship?shld i ask myself to let it go?shld i force myself to do sumting dat i dislike juz to please him?all tis question keep haunting in my mind..

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Saturday

2 blogs togather

Morning woke up ard 9.30 liao,slept in parents room too nice to slp le wake up late den b4...den same old check mail,browse frenster.blog n chiong ms with vic...ard 12 go out fetch my bro n sis,wah suddenly rain liao,so worry the com i left it on9,luckily is okay...den my ms bcome so lag so i log off n go finish up my novel my mum rent...evenin go take a bath eat dinner n play awhile ms while w8ting for my bf(wai seng) to come my house...wen he is here he ask me go out with him,go yam cha with his fren(i dunwan go oso canot lar he's here liao) LOLx my old clasmate last time so skinny,2day he a bit fat liao..ard 11pm go home n chiong ms...i go do shumi last jumping quest,haiz make me dizzy...den go train with vic,ard 2am oni i go to bed...(din slp well)

ard 6am my uncle alarm keep ringing,wake up liao but feel tire so lying on the bed till 8..on the com n start helping vic with his jumping quest liao...used ard 4 hours oni finish,so happy i can help him,hehe...wen v go train at monkey forest my mum cal,i tot for awhile oni din tel vic i afk but went down quite long(mum givin lecture on safety) so sianz!!! come back to com vic say no mood to train so v go msn chat,n he ask me wad pic n song i wan to put in blog...start send pic n song n choose...ard 4pm vic say he wan go out le so v off9 liao n i gone for a nap til 7pm oni wake up,simply find sumting to eat i cont chiong ms(help vic collect doll) n browsing web for wallpaper n now here with my blog...later chiong ms again lor...dats my day!

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Thursday

Surprise!!!

Tis morning i suppose to wake up ard 6.30 drive my sis n bro to school,but i can wake up,wad to do last nite shi mian le..luckily my uncle staying here for few day so he send them...but i din slp for long after dat,i used to it wake up ard 9 or i hav alot in my mind cause me cant cont slp?

haix cant slp so wake up lor...chiong ms..but ms dear(vic) not on9 yet so i play my new char...but not for long!i den go browse ard frenster look at my fren's photo..open my ex-steady photo(memory playing in my head) hav a weird feeling,i mis those days with him n all those frendly coursemate (but frm my fern in4 most of them now 'xin ji zhong')...Oh no almost forget 2day is winsi birthday,luckily i set reminder last nite,hehe...(2day suppose to go out but lih choon still in Muar,her house,so wad to do)hmm,quite long din find min lee le n all those sec skol best fren..

den ard 12pm vic on9 liao,he finding song frm a website baidu(which i den ask for it) n i heard a song frm s.h.e call 'zhi teng hua' -- not bad leh!!!ard 1pm,look likes goin to rain,no choice hav to fetch my bro n sis home lor den came home n chiong ms with my vic liao...eh,vic n sheng toking to each other o(kind off), even i dun noe them 4 long but im glad dey could b okay,soon..i really hope so..found out rain on9(n solo 4 few mins) but she not in the guild liao,cant tok to her...

3pm, alarm rang!!!hehe...last nite miss both CSI episode so 2day replay i dun wan miss!!so i leave my ms on(vic help me train ^^ )after CSI come back ms lagging terrible leh n i hav stomachache so din tag long...juz after i log off internet,my bf call me.Hey wad a surprise!!!mayb u all think it's normal 4 him to cal,but is been sumtime he din cal unless i require it,so i was so surprise n happy...those feeling i had last nite temporaly gone but i noe it wil keep haunting me if i dun find a settlement.Hang up the phone i lay down on bed (omg fall asleep,too tire ba) ard 7.30 wake up liao hav my bath n dinner n grap a novel start reading den now with my blog...hehe now oni 10pm leh,vic wont on9 yet,he go out with alvin le..sry lar vic,2day very tire leh...wan go to bed liao..tata..

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19th July

Tis morning my parent gone for vacation...din bring me..i miss beach so much, really much...but the oni time i hav tis feeling is wen i felt unhappy.bcoz tis the time i feel like listen to the sound of the sea,the wave seem to bring away my sadness...
2nite oso my cousin birthday n suppose the day my bf set as dating nite,so i ask him follow to my aunt house den ard 10.30pm v head home.He stay for awhile but v din really tok much,i dun noe Y,2nite v r so silent...Too silent til i felt scare,seem like sumting goin to happen but mayb i juz think too much,or i juz hav noting to tok to him so he too kept quite?
After he gone i den on9,even i told him i wont,i think mayb i can find sum1 to tok to,but wen i on ms,met my ms dear...i found dat actually i dun noe wad to say,i really dun noe wad is in my mind,i felt lonely...Lonely is killing me,but Y i felt dat way?i hav so much,Y?

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Tuesday

LoVe

Wen do u start to be Love?
It's frm the First day u r in ur mum belly;
Wen do u start Lovin sumone?
It's frm the First day u r held by ur mum;
Wen do u start learning Love?
It's wen u discover the diff btw gal n boys;
Wen do u start believe in Love?
It's wen u dream to be with sumone 4ever;
Wen had u learned to Love?
It's the Day u sleep peacefully in the coffin.

Love sumtimes end up with sorrows; however it contain sweetness;
Love may hurt u deeply; u may felt lonely,sumtimes even hopeless...
Even u felt tired to Love bcoz the result is not wad u dream to have;
Even u felt tired to be Love bcoz it is too much burden for u to kept...
U can never stop believe in Love;
U can never stop trying for Love...
Wen u stop believing it,u stop havin dream;
Wen u stop trying it,u stop to learn to Love...
Love brighten up ur Life n gave u hope;
Love help u grow to be a better person...
Therefore never stop believin n dreamin;
Therefore let urself learn to Love n grow...
Wen the 'Day' come by,u wil Know wad is Love;
Wen u c the world in diff eyes,u noe u r Blessed...

|DREAMS WILL COME TRUE |

Sunday

first day with my blog

havin holiday all alone in my house with the pc...is dat fun? yah abit wen havin sum1 to talk to..it is so lonely wen cant get anybody.. sob... 2day knowing one of my fren wil b getting off to manchester soon,feel good for her but im sad..coz wen she is there we wont b able to meet/chat often liao..i wil mis her so much!! tis make me no mood for mapling..n i hav no mood for anyting,actually,even with my boy boy..he felt dat too wen i accompany him for medical check up,we den hav sum drink.he ask me wad on my mind n i lied to him,i dun noe y i did dat,i juz dun feel like tokin bout it..im confuse with myself..

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