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Thursday

So not in the mood tis few days...last nite countdown nite,my bf went to watch fireworks with his fren,i din go...beside i recieve msg frm BAC,inform me dat the result can be collect after 1pm yesterday...i oni notice dat msg ard 2.30,BAC wil be close early on dat day,so i din go n collect liao...not enuf time for me to be there...so nervous n worry for my result,dun noe wad i wil get leh...dats y i was feeling blue...at nite,felt so lonely,couldnt use the com to fool ard,release my bad mood,so listen to my mp3,alone in the room,my bf din cal me,sure lo he havin fun with his fren,dats y i felt lonely lor...ard 1am i mis cal him lo,i kind a not happy with him,let him noe liao,but say sry to him oso afterdat...

morning woke up,din on9 coz my bf wil b here later,scare after i on9 i wil be addicted in playing game,dun wan 'choy' him liao...but he came late,ard 1pm oni he arrived,wen i was waiting for him so bore leh,wan use com oso canot liao,my bro n sis using le...after he is here,cook noodle for him,he haven eat breakfast de...den watch awhile TV liao v go take a nap,he last nite went home very late,so stil fell tire,accompany him take nap lo even i dun fell like sleeping...den evening v went out hav dinner,his family went to sg long le,no 1 at home,dats y hav dinner with him,v went to 'grilled king',the food there not very nice oso,but expensive d leh,wont go back there eat again de liao...after dinner come home lo,tok tok awhile with my parent,my bf got abit 'soar throut',my mum notice he always liddat de,say maybe he hav sensitive throut,den ask me go make 'ju zhi shui' for him...he accompany me watch fear factor liao den oni go home...i want to use com de, but my bro n sis faster den me go to study room,i ask dem let me use but dey dun wan,wad to do...dad on his laptop,i suddenly remember my mp3 nid recharge le,so go c my dad play pangya while charging my mp3 lo...den dad want slp le,so i go study room c whether dey can let me use,actually my bro stil wan use the com de,he went to bathroom,so i took tis chance to write blog lo...he not happy,but is enuf liao,my patient got limit de,he using de whole day liao stil not enuf,dats is,i dun care liao,he cry oso i dun care...2molo i wil be goin back to BAC le,for my result..hmm...dun noe how i did,hope i pass all lo...if not,nid resit again leh,nid spent more $$$ de wor...

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Monday

1st thing in the morning wen i woke up,cal brickfield asia college(BAC),ask whether the result wil be release 2day,the answer is 'not sure yet'...i was relieve but at the same time,kind a,disappointed...so head back to my room,start reading novel...finish the book ady 11.30,hungry le,go hav breakfast den on9,not for long oni,juz check mail den dun feel like playing any on9 game,so off9 and hide myself in those novels,hehe...took a nap,den wanted to giv my bro 'tut' as wad my mum had assign me to do,but he went back to skol for sum activities so i do my stuff lo...den ard 5 want to giv him 'tut' he like giving me faces,not willing to cooperate but he got no choice,must do oso...afterdat my fren got msg me say 2molo can collect result,i told my dad ask him send me to LRT station 2molo,but not long later my fren cal again,said dat the date stil not confirm yet,the result actually is arrived in British Council,is juz our college haven go n collect it, 'Mr Johti is a very busy guy',wad to do,wait lo...hopefully sooner lar,i really start having weird feeling waiting for the result...monday nite,my bf as usual come to my house watch TV with me,i wont want to go out de,coz my fav -- 'numb3r' n 'house'...so as to tue n wed got 'CSI',not goin to miss it if i not sure i able to watch replay or not de...as usual he went home at 11,n i blog lo...2day not staying up too late,the result thing,making me no mood...so better go to bed early n hope to get msg frm BAC(tell me to go collect me result) more early lo...even dats mean i nid to start be hardworking liao...

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Sunday

2 days din blog liao,connection probs & my family using the com,no free slot liao,wad to do...so i kind a used my time reading novels on friday,at nite my bf is here,suddenly feel bit hungry,noting to eat at home,so my bf say o out hav supper lo,ask my sis to join(dad n bro went out liao),wen v juz start the car engine,dad home,bro say want to join us,so 4 of us went to hav supper lo...actually i usually dun eat supper de,my sis n bf kind a suprise dat i suddenly ask dem go supper,hehe...

den on sat,on9 awhile,dear haven on9,later mum wan to use com so hav to let her use lo...my sis juz wake up havin breakfast,im bore so ask her finish up her food den go rent some CD or comics...v oni rent animation CDs n bought some junk food plus some soft drinks...went home start watching...v rent 2 diff animation,start our day with the show call 'boogiepop phantom',tis show got 2 CD oni,finish in 2 hours liao,at the end v basically dun noe wad the show bout,haha,even my mum who join us later,cant understand wad the show try to say....den the 2nd animation is,erm,forgot the name rite now,i finish dat show too,alone,coz my sis got piano clas at evening ma,my family went out le,left me alone...

2day,woke up ard 9.30,start prepare to go out,after im done,wake my sis up,den go check out whether my mum is preparing,read awhile newspaper,time to wake my bro tis time...i keep rushing everyone coz i dun want to be late...v goin to times square,but i wil b with my fren there de,not my family...luckily reached there on time,oni lih choon reached dat time,not long later is min lee...cal winsi,as usual she late,2day she kind a 2 hours late,so tis time v had an idea,next time hav to budget an extra hour for her,hehe...v had brunch,shop shop,lih choon bought a bag for her n her fren...den ard 3 she nid to go le,i wil miss her...2day should b the last day v meet til lih choon is back frm manchester...acc winsi get sum food den v say good bye liao,i join my family,i wanted to go home de,but my bro wan watch movie,mum want buy sumting,sis wanted to go home at 1st but after my bro say wan watch 'monster house' she change her mind,dad anyting,so is 3 vs 1 + 1 neutral,dey win lo,v go sunway pyramid...bought movie ticket,shop awhile den go hav our dinner at Kim Garrey...the movie not bad...reached home almost 10 liao,take a bath le n now blog lo...but cal my bf 1st,chit chat awhile...im so tire now...2molo stil nid to cal my college to confirm the date for result,hope not 2molo,my leg killing me now,if is 2molo i stil nid travel all by myself,wah,cham de leh...me scare scare,dun noe hows my result wil be,sob sob...

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Thursday

Watching animation almost for whole day,finally finish all of the CDs...is ard 3pm dat time wen im done,saw a novel dat i haven read b4...hmm...afternoon cant play ms oso so read dat novel lo...den listen to my mp3 till i fall asleep...wen i woke up my sis come in the room,look at the time ard 6 liao so go take bath lo...but after i done blowing my hair,saw my sis want to take a nap,i ask her she dun wan watch TV ar?den oni i found out is juz 5pm...LOL...i c wrong liao...mum back,start nagging tis n dat,tok tis n dat,walao,my head like goin to blow liao,hen fan,but she my mum, wad to do,haiz...force me drink dat green thing,i dun like dat taste...my sis want to go out with a fren 2molo,ask for permission,mum want me to acc wor,but i dun wan,so boring,alone with her fren,nah,not goin to happen...rather stay at home doin noting,beside my fren ask me out oso i refuse liao,fell like staying at home,dun noe y?2day is 24th of august liao,almost bah,the result,my fren msg me,say maybe wil be out on 28th,not 100% sure yet,so wait for dat day call to college ask bah...start worry liao...hmm...i thk im not goin to tell my dad maybe dat day result out bah,wait for dat day,cal liao,comfirm liao,let him noe i go out den go back to college alone lar,after take the result oni tell...figure back,not even once my major result day my parent acc me to go back skol,PMR my fren father send us back,SPM,i took LRT + bus frm KTAR to skol, A-level...i oni remember i was with my fren...hehe...forgot how i go liao...really ler,how i go liao?argh...wad ever lar...dun hav mood to play ms 2nite,want to off9 le,tata...

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Wednesday

The Memory

Have u try to like sum1 dat dun like u but ur fren? N ur fren too do like her/him. I thk most of us tried b4, or don’t? I do once, wen I was young, can be say dat time I don’t even sure wad is like n love, hu can make sure a young teenager, wen had learn the meaning of liking sum1 or loving sum1?
Dat year, I still remember fresh in my mind, coz dat year a lot had happen…

1st of all ,family crisis, not my father n mother but my aunt, uncle, cousin…arguing non stop, shouting ,crying……dats the time I start feeling ‘hate to be in tis house, feel like running away, I bcome very quite even at skol’
2nd, met with my primary skol best fren(cal her ‘X’ ba), but different ‘form’ so v use letter to communicate again……
3rd, I cut my hair short, use to keep long hair wen I was young coz of ballet clas, den wen I stop ballet hav to cut my hair but oni for 1 yr, which is the last yr of my pri skol my hair short, after dat I keep it long again, din nid long time for my hair to grow, dat yr on holiday all my fren wanted to cut n I join….
4th, met a guy in my clas, start to like him (Y)……
5th, very moody, even been mark b4, penalty n ‘hei ming dan’
6th. X’s fren like Y too, X accidently told her bout me, X’fren start calling me sum bad words after I cut my hair short, dat hair cut happen to make me look more pretty, dats wad my fren say……..
7th, my fren notice bout those words dey calling bout me, I was mad but dun feel like take any action however, X’s fren came to find me, try argue with me, but couldn’t start a fight (lucky) coz teacher pass by…..
8th, grandma pass away, feel like lose sumting but dun really feel sad coz im not so close with grandma, rarely see her….
9th, a stranger pretend to be Y cal me on phone, v start chatting a lot, at the end I noe he one of my guy fren’s cousin, forgot his name………
10th, Y told us, except me, he like my best fren (Z), Z n others try to keep tis in4 away frm me…..

Tis is all for dat year, the love story continue the following year….

Go back to skol, din noe bout Y n Z…after 1 month, Y’s fren kind a announce dat Y like Z, I was shock but pretend noting happen…Z cal me, she say sry for not telling me, I ask her she like Y or not, she couldn’t answer me but I noe wad is her answer, she worry I will be sad n don’t want to hurt my feeling so she did not take anymove, I felt guilty for tis, I lied, I told her I dun like him anymore, she should go ahead b with him, she happy im happy… Frm dat day, Y n Z start dating, I saw dem holding hand (I was behind dem), everytime my heart feel so pain looking at dem but I have to hide it… Dey had argument, I comfort her n try to giv suggestion/opinion, cheer her up, even I felt weird to be her counselor coz its hurting me, my feeling…I cried on phone with the stranger, he cheer me up,I forgot how many time I cried on phone hiding in my room, I oni remember, one day he grats me, coz my voice not dat sad n I stop crying bout Y anymore…dat day oni I realize I had let it go….Y n Z broke up not long after I’m fine…

But the whole story bout their break up I oni noe after few years later after I notice I had been a fool to like another guy….

Dat same year, 1 of my classmate told to me, C like me n want to noe wad is my answer, I was shy n coincidently recess time, I run away frm the clas to canteen… after dat I told my classmate is exam year tis yr maybe v tok bout it after the exam, my classmate say he hav a same idea too….den after the exam, no news frm him, dat time I start to like him ady after dat day I noe C like me, I start paying attention to him n found up he quite nice n dats it, I fall into another trap again… I really tot C like me coz he is kind a serious guy, I dun thk he wil play with realationship…after another year, on September, C give me a call, he told me he din tell any1 he like me, his fren toking nonsense oni, ask me not to believe dem…silly me, I still couldn’t help to like him even after the call…I’m so stupid, did not pull my leg off frm the ‘hole’….another year pass by, another exam year, one day on the bus, a fren told me, actually those guys fren I noe, including Y bet will I fall to tis trap, n wad u noe, I was a game of dem, a game of fun to fill up their boring time, I’m such a fool… couldn’t cry after noe bout tis bet, but feel I’m useless…later on, I oni found out bout Y n Z broke up coz Z found out dats is a game for dem oso, dey fool us one by one…but is juz me n Z fall into the trap, the other two fren, 1 is not interested for any relationship dat time, another is bcoz she more chicky, more alert den us….

2 guy I like, 2 guy is juz being a fool in their game…tis cause me lost faith in love… honestly my first love ended dat early, really bcoz of me wen I start not able to believe v can continue, wen v hav to separate to diff college, I chose another route to walk on, for my future….but I did had a good memory with him…however I lost myself for certain period, I did a huge mistake for my love life, I was regret to hurt dat guy, I felt sick n unbelievable I had be with him b4…those days with tis guy, I spent all my time to forget, but is still in my memory n remind me wen I was unaware…

Now with him, my third bf, n I hope to be the last, I noe I nid to be honest but not too honest, I start notice v nid a free space for myself, oni for myself, no one can enter, there is a lot I learn n a lot to be learn…but for now, I noe I told a lot ppl, one nid to hav faith in love, should not give up, but I had lost faith n giv up for few times, til now I stil couldn’t hav enuf faith in love, even I wan to believe a relationship can be ‘forever’ but I stil doubted…even I want to hav faith on him but I still thking he might go away one day, even I wan to hav faith but I still don’t, how many nites I thking nonsense, how many times I make him tell me he wont walk away, how many times I tell myself don’t thk too much juz believe, but still how many nites I woke up crying after having a dream he left me alone….

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Tuesday

As usual wake up,wash my face,on9 1st,hehe...saw dear on9 wor,so early...he told me he shi mian last nite,couldnt slp,so ard 6 on ms liao...v tok for few mins oni,dear wan off9 le,wan go meet his mei...i play ms awhile off9 le,as usual so lag,hard to play...den i go read novel lo...finish up the rest of the novel my mum rented,erm,got 3 left oni lar...took a nap,woke up take a bath watch TV le...ard 8 faster go chiong pc 1st,if not my bro use liao i canot use le...play awhile den feel like checking my college website,c wether got any in4 bout my result or not...now oni i noe this stupid website dun hav any in4 on tis de...haiz...not sure wen i should cal my lecture,scare leh,dun dare to ask...ard 11,stop ms awhile lo,wan write blog ma,saw dear on9,he finish his blog liao,wan go eat le...so i wirte blog lo...n cal my bf,his phone sumting wrong again,cal few times liao,he got answer but i cant hear his voice,so after few mins he cal me lo,use handfree oni can tok...wan go back to ms le...tata..

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mum 'off'

Yesterday woke up,tot wil b goin out soon,mum took leave since my bro n sis having holiday for a week,tot bring dem go out for 1 day, so i din on9 lo...c stil got time so grap a novel my mum juz rent, start reading it...ard 1 me n my family went to hav our lunch at '1st station' --- actually brunch for me,hehe,forgot to eat breakfast,so hungry liao,wen the food here i eat so fast o.0 after lunch should b goin to sunway pyramid de,but my bro n sis want go home watch CD n me so lazy to go so mum cal my aunt lo,ask her wan join or not...mum got nag me awhile lar for not accompany her...hmm...ady 2pm liao lo,i thk ms wil lag ba so i din on9,go read novel,finish one after another,wah,i ady finish up 4 novels leh...ard 6 tot having a quick nap den go watch TV de,juz fall asleep mum home liao,woke me up(she keep toking so loud ma),haiz....mum say she bought sumting for my san jie wedding present le,ask me wan take a look or not,but im so sleepy din choy her,hehe,lay awhile den take a bath go watch TV liao...my bf 2nite din come to my house,he say he tire wor...ard 10pm i wan on9 de but my dad n my bro using,dey playing pangya,so go back infront of the TV lor,thk maybe later can use liao ba,but after finish the show -- 'house' my dad still playing but tis time my sis using liao,playing pangya oso,i noe she wont let me use de lar,dats y i go back to my room,listen to my mp3 den feel tire liao,dun noe wad time i fall asleep le...

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Sunday

Wedding coming soon

I did not giv him the ‘letter’,tear it of n throw liao,hmm…but I did msg him lar,tok bout sumting but not all lor,juz few things…den v decided not to argue bout tis le,is enuf…v both do not intend to broke up,so ok lo stop bout tis argument lo…nid time to hav things change de,hope v can manage to solve our prob b4 is too late…yesterday ard evening,my cousin--san jie n her bf with my da jie n her husband n my little nephew, came to my house,got news for my mum,san jie getting married,u noe y lo,hehe,next yr I wil b aunt again liao lar…my mum cry leh,last time san jie live with us for bout 2 yrs ba,so mum treat her like own child le,dats y cry lo…da jie make jokes,say next time if I wan get marry hor,juz go n buy 2 towel home,dun nid say too much de,LOLx…actually wen san jie is here I was chatting with a fren,jeff,but c the situation like tis so I stop chatting liao…wen mum tell my dad say ‘da nu er yao jia le’ I pretend jealous say im her ‘da nu er’ not ‘san jie da nu er’,mum laugh lor…haha…den at nite I was playing ms,suddenly network lost connection,cant log on internet liao,so din blog liao lo…wad to do…I wanted to slp early de,but hor, the stupid fan,so noisy,woke me up,cant stand the noise liao,so feel cold oso on aircond slp…I wonder hows the wedding san jie wil hav,probably simple ba…stil young leh,not much tis $$$...

Tis morning I woke up early waiting for my bf come,haiz he woke up so late,dat time he reach my house ady 1pm,go to his house hav lunch,his mum cook liao,vegetarion food lar,his mum vegetarion lai de,not bad de wor the food…den hav a nap,lazy go out ma…ard 5 my bf say he want go try the chessy bite at pizza hut,so after he take his bath v go back to my house 1st,my turn to take bath,my sis so greedy,she want to join my parent for dinner – steambout,but she oso want eat chessy bite,so I hav to ‘da pao’…hmm…cheese,I din eat much,very full…saw a fren there,tok awhile den she nid to go le,I bought a present for my fren den go home liao…dad told me,he found a law firm wan attachment student de,so maybe I can ask lo…dun noe yet lar,c lor,maybe I wil cal ba…wait lar,after I get my result 1st lar…hehe…

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Friday

Questioning myself

last nite i 'shi mian',too much thinking in my head,too much question bothering me...had a weird dream u noe,i dream of i bein chase by 2 ghost,dey killied me,with knife,continously chopping on me.......is scary,is terrified,ask for help but no 1 here,woke up i cry...hard to slp back again...den morning ard 10 i start writing a letter,letter for my bf,but i haven decide to giv him the letter i wrote or not,is weird rite,i got a phone i can cal him n tok to him,tell him wad i say,but i chose to write my thought my feeling on a paper,if i use to tok,i noe i cant say wad i want to tell...

last nite i chat with him,at 1st ok de den he start toking dat wad i did for my holiday,start saying im wasted all my time,he ask wad i learn tis holiday,i tell him i did learn sumting,but i cant tell him wad,coz i dun wan to,den he say,yalar,u learn to play game n slp oni ma,i keep quite...yah,im not happy with wad he said,'wo hen xiao qi' dats wad he said,den i tell him he not prefect oso wad,he ask me tell him,again i keep quite,he use a very anoying tone say 'c im prefect wad,better den u alot alot more',im hurt,totally hurt,but i hav noting to say dat time,i juz tell him i feel like hanging up the phone,im trying to control myself u noe,not to be mad...

he my bf,he can oni c my weakness,he can oni keep telling wad i shld do wad i shld change,he keep telling me is for my own gd,he keep saying im not mature,so childish dun noe how to thk properly for my future,so he hav to guide me...im tire listen tis words,tire to juz accepting wad he say n telling myself he do hav a point n hide up my point of view,im tire to try telling him i hav my idea of living,i hav my opinion wad is gd for me for my life...im not able to tok bout my thought to him anymore,dats y i chose to write it down,but den im stil wonder had i wrote all the thing dat i wan say,im stil thiking shld i let him read tis letter...

He always say he hav a mature thinking de,im not...he got plan his future but me not...i hav noting to argue back liao,since he think i canot accept his opinion n not goin to take his advice make changes...but at the same time i would like to ask him did he listen to me,listen wad i wan to say?everytime i try to tok he start toking my weakness n so on...everytime after an arguement,he always say he wont force me de,let me do wad i wan to do...but at the end he still keep toking...i dun noe wad to do anymore...with him,with my life...

I understand i nid to change myself to be better,but tis nid time,nid to be done step by step...I ask him giv me time,but he stil keep forcing me...question arising in my mind,shld i cont with him?i noe i cant let him go...shld i force myself to be sum1 he wan me to be?i noe 1 day i may feel like tis is not the life i wan...shld i love him?im not sure,since all tis argueing is making me tire...

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Thursday

Wer is peace???

Walao,frm yesterday my mum calling security lar,neighbour lar,den giving use lecture lar,say buy pepper spray lar,dun take handbag lar,dun walk alone lar,even with a bunch of fren walking oso worry liao,say canot!!!wah,liddat means no car no goin out lo...so fan liao,keep tok tok tok...yalar,safety very important must alert,but abit too much le ba...my sis say 2molo wan go out with her fren,walk,mum ask dad send her n her fren there,n wait for my sis wor...so embarrasing de ler,me oso dun like it lar...my sis face abit weird weird liao dat time...beside tis safety thing.mum toking bout my bro study,mum ask him whether he wan go out tuisyen or let me teach wor...the answer is so obvious,sure he wan me teach liao de lar,time more free ma,me cham lo,hate teaching but no choice,mum even say give me money if i teach,dats mean canot say no liao,must b my bro tuisyen teacher...2day i ask my bro do math,he hor,never do properly oso,wen i mark 10 question 8 wrong,OMG,sure he juz circle,never count oso...den wen dad is home,dad teach him liao lo...coz me wan heartattack liao,told u me no patience de,c liddat wan to kill him liao,hehe,so mad marking the answers...really dun noe how he study at skol de lar,simple fraction oso he say dun noe,juz adding wad,haven ask him divide oso,he can do wrong de,so im out of patience lo...mum c me so bad mood oso dun ask me teach him for now le,dad explain lo,if not he wont learn de with my mood,i wil scold him...2molo nid find exercise for him to do oso,den got 1 week rest,coz dey skol holiday,so mum say let him play for 1 week wor...gd lar,atleast i got 1 week dun nid so 'qi shi ren' de lo...

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Wednesday

Teaching

2day juz wake up not long ago,mum cal me(on phone la),ask me go read my sis book,she got PMR tis yr,ask me help her tick those important point,but most importnat thing is go find my bro books,giv him exercise to do wen he is back wor...i hate teaching,especially my bro,like dragging a cow to walk,however no choice lo...dig ard my sis books awhile,hmm,read science awhile make me feel sick liao,my science sucks,beside she so clever,atleast clever den me ma,she can do her own lar,mum ask me last time how i study de,den help her lo...i wonder how i study liao,hmm,i dun really study leh...hehe...my language subject i usually a day b4 oni i go read de,my geography got fren gd in it,she tick important point for me n explain to me,i dun nid do alot of work oso,history cant help,she can oni memorise her own,i oso dun noe wad is important wad is not,i look at it like everyting nid memorise,science ar,now change to english liao,last time in malay oso im not gd,now english more 'cham',those specific word i summore nid ask her leh,math ne,nid do alots exercise de lar,if so hardworking no prob de,n another KH last time i din took oso,how i noe lar,ask me a question i ask her back 10 question,haha...for my bro ar,juz get exercise for him lo,hehe,me sure ask him do math de lar,other subject i wil be digging my mind n he wil be fooling ard liao,how to work liddat leh...but wen he is home,he say he dun wan do math,he took BM exercise,so after he done i nid check,im like checking dictionary n asking my sis,LOL,even me oso not sure wad is the answer how to mark,answer sheet is with dad but he not back yet,so hav to wait lo...hao liao lo,talking bout all tis stuff make me feel im stupid,cant understand alot of thing,do i really nid study back those thing leh hor?no bah...im not goin to b a teacher anyway,no matter wad...i been finding excuse to my mum wen she ask me giv ppl home tuition,really hate teaching lar,wad to do,beside i hav no patient n easy to get mad de...

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Tuesday

Wonder

I wonder y he wont remember wad his gal said
I wonder y he cant juz listen wad his gal talking
I wonder y he wont pay attention to her needs
I wonder y he wan her to b the best but forget he not
I wonder y I can accept all tis even I felt so sad
I wonder y I can stil b with him even I felt tire
I wonder y I can forgive him even wen heartbroken
I wonder y I can forget those unpleasant wen his here
I wonder y I hav to love him wen I feel like give up
I noe is weird missing sum1 else but same time loving the other
I noe I love him even sumtimes I felt other guy better
U may ask whether I really love him dat much
U may thk if I do not y continue tis realationship
The answer is not everyone can find the really love ones in ur life
The answer is I appreciate for wad I having with him
The answer is love wil grow if u wan it to grow
Maybe one day v separated but I noe v wil try our best not to
He may not be the best of all but he wil try to be
I may not the best he wan but I try to achieve it
V may get hurt a lot but v try to learn more everytime
Both of us hav lots to change to be better person
And v are trying to make the best of our future
I love him more frm day after another
Even wen v had argument my love do not less

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Monday

Hair cut

2day my mum din go to work,have fever...so morning on9 awhile,help my fren with her blog,play audition n maple,dear(vic) din on9,so sian with ms so found a novel start reading it -- 'huo jian gui'. den ard 2 nid to go fetch my sis n bro liao,dey din c me,luckily i saw my sis frm far,walking back home,so drive off to fetch dem,if din saw her i dun noe how long i wil keep waiting liao...reach home,my sis watch DVD --- chocolate factory,i join her...ard 5 mum ask me why i haven go get my hair cut since there is car at home ma,i said sianz goin saloon alone so mum accompany me lo...i actually wanted to cut it short but the guy say short not suitable for me,long hair i wil look prettier,so din cut short short liao,juz 'xiu yi xiu'...add more layer...the guy say my hair a bit dry,should apply the cream i bougth frm there b4 everyday after shower de not once in 2 days(i told him i oni apply for once in 2 days)...ard 9 my bf come to my house,watch TV -- 'numb3rs' n 'house',my another fav TV show,den he go home le...dad 2molo goin Johor,for work,he ask me wan join him or not,i can go my aunt house to stay few days,but i dun wan to,it wil b boring de since my cousin got skol n tuisyen,my aunt working at nite de so normally wil be sleeping til late...cant on9 there oso...suddenly remember my cousin mis cal me last nite,so cal her chat lo...ask bout her study,she tell me juz pass oso she very happy -- xie tian xie di,OMG,den she said she juz start join violin clas,wah...study oso haven gd yet go learn so many stuff- violin lar,hip hop dance la,blah blah...she like it can liao lo,dun care la...after the phone cal on9 lo,write blog,later chat awhile with dear,maybe...

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Sunday

Bobby

Yesterday nite i was playing ms with dear(vic) til very late so din cont with my blog liao...noting much yesterday,same old on9 play gamez,chat den watch TV,read novel,dats all...

2day,ard 7am mum come in our room,ask my sis wake up go jogging,i dun wan join even ady wake up dat time,laying on the bed til 9 den oni i wake up...ard 11 my bf reach my house,v go back to his house 1st.His cousin is here,with his little nephew,so cute,i like children de,but if take care whole day,i thk i wil die ba,hehe...got a little cousin ma,he keep climb here n there de,tire following him.v den go Sumway Pyramid,eat lunch at KFC,walk around,meet my parent n my bro,my sis not here coz 2molo got exam,nid study...Dad ask me wer i bought my mp3 n how much,i told him is at PC Fair de,2day last day,he say my sis wan mp3 for her birthday present,so i start calling sum of my frenz c wether dey at PC Fair or not,however no luck,so i told dad the shop is at SS2 maybe can go there buy lo...ard 6 me n my bf head home liao,he sat awhile in my house den go home...Argh...mum ask me drink sumting again,vege juice wor,so awful leh the taste...but stil hav to drink de lo...din had my dinner,not hungry...afterdat i on9,check mail 1st...i said b4 i rarely check mail de, so took sum time to finish...there is a stranger send me an email,he ask wether i can b his fren(he wan to expand his social life),so i reply his mail lo,no big deal hav another new fren wad...den start mapling le,not training actually,selling stuff,dun hav luck sell gd price...boring selling thing liao so off ms lo,cal my bf chit chat,he told me he juz help his dog take bath,talk bout his dog oni i remember 2day wen i leave his house,hia dog,bobby keep following me,so my bf bit him,den bobby wan to protect his head,at the same time try to approach me by crawling with his hand on his head,so funny...hmm,tire liao,is time to go to bed le,bye..........

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Saturday

PC Fair

Yesterday i woke up very early,since i hav to walk half mins walk,board bus den KTM den LRT,wil took time de,but after i took a shower,my dad knock on my door,ask wad time im goin out,i told him nid travel a lot so almost goin out liao,i tot wan ask him drop me at de bus stop de,but daddy ask if i foolow go Setapak,there got LRT oso,so i dun nid keep changing station lo...i quickly dress up,breakfast oso din eat go out liao...ard 10am v in sum wer near setapak but im not sure wer r v la,had our breakfast,den daddy drop me at Sentul station(tot is Putra line but den it is Star line,so hav to change oso)...is raining,i get wet a bit liao...Frm sentul to masjik jamek,not many ppl la,but wen frm Masjik Jamek to KLCC,is so pack,til i dun nid hold anyting oso wont fall down...wen i was in there,there is a guy keep looking at me de,den wen v reach KLCC,he come down oso,at the door maybe accident la but wen i was on the stair ho,he pass by me frm behind n at the time he try to touch me,wad a jerk,however he din get wad he wan the time coz at the same time i cover myself liao(adjust skirt ma,hehe)...Call my fren wer to meet,she said convention hall but i forgot wer liao den she said she come find me lo,but on the way i saw a sign to convention hall so i follow it lo,saw her on the way...Wah so many ppl liao leh at the PC Fair,my fren say y msia ppl all so free de,friday dun id work meh,LOL...We keep browsing the price n quality,Lihchoon nid buy Laptop,Minlee nid buy a pendrive(2g de),2 notebook harddisk drive...Me oni accompany dem de,but den wen i was talking with my fren bout Mp3 a guy(saleman la)tell me dey now got sell a mp3 oni for RM88,dat time i start browsing for those Mp3 price n compare liao,hehe...ard 3 v all hungry n tire so v went to Nando hav our lunch(not bad lo the food there)afterdat head back to PC Fair,tis time v kind a decided wer to buy our stuff le,juz nid ask summore in4 to confirm...Lihchoon buy her Laptop at Dell,but her bro help her but at the mean time me,lihchoon n minlee went to another store(is more pack den morning liao,liddat faster ma)den i decided to buy the RM88 Mp3(got less RM3),Minlee bought her pendrive at the same store,for her notebook harddisk drive,she not very sure yet,so v wait for lihchoon's bro to come...wen he arrive he say another store maybe better price so v go check it out lo,yah it is more cheaper...bought our thing liao,is time to go home...So coincident i meet a college clasmate(currently) at the LRT station...Reach home ard 7.30...Take a bath,hav dinner den my mum say wan go watch movie but i din follow so as my sis coz i nid wait for my bf to come n my sis wan study...ard 9.30 my old fren call,ask me sumting bout laptop,she said she look around at the PC Fair for the price juz now,den oni i noe she was there oso n my another old fren oso was there,but v 3 din c each oso,LOL,maybe bcoz too many ppl ba,chat with her awhile(dun dare too long since my bf is here) 11 pm my bf went home,i tot of on9 de but so tire liao,so i go to bed early lo...beside dear say he come to m'sia 2day ma,on9 oso maybe no 1 to chat,but tis morning i read his blog oni i noe he din come m'sia...ok lo,continue 2nite...

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Thursday

Registration

9am woke up,had sum bread,den wanted to on9 liao...but juz on pc,daddy back with my sis n bro,2day is report card day,so early back lo...den daddy say wan go register our phone liao... now prepaid line nid register de,date line is end of tis year,so daddy scare later wil forget so now got time go register 1st lo...v went to digi center,1st i tot nid wait long de, but reach there no1,done so fast,afterdat daddy say go maxis center ask bout the internet service...our internet now using broadband wireless,run so slow leh,so daddy heard maxis will launch a fix line de,if got change lo but wrong liao,the new system is wireless de,the guy say tis new wan better,wont hav interuption wen rain oso wor,dun noe is true or not,however it is not launched yet...bout 1 more week oni start tis service de,daddy seem like goin to change to tis system ba...den daddy say go damansara 1st,take stock,afterdat v go home,but b4 dat nid go fetch my sis fren 1st,she goin out later...reach home bout 12 noon lo...1st i tot dear on9 liao de but haven leh...so i play awhile audition,ard 1.30 dear on9,he told me he yesterday too tire liao,so juz wake up oni,v chat awhile den he wan go eat le...so i go back to aud but aud cant play(run new patch) so tot of playing kongkong lo but very laggy(cant finish a race oso)so giv up,go browse web find stuff lo...bout 1 hour later dear back,v chat till 4pm i go watch CSI liao,after the show i take a nap...wake up by noise(mum nagging my sis sumting)so go take a bath den watch TV again.juz wake up dun feel like eating,but mum,dad n my bro eating,mummy ask me join,she say our family rarely eat togather,she wan force us eat togather next time(everyday wor),tis wont be happen ba,mum always back late leh n dad...den on9 again lo,play aud...bout 11pm daddy giv my bro tuition,juz beside me,my bro 'hen bu gan yuan',can hear him keep stump his foot,dun even look at the book wen daddy explaining,ask him do exercise wan cry liao...OMG,how he study lar,all subject oso fail/juz pass...my mum very mad bout dat...i wonder wen he take PMR,hows his result?haiz...gtg liao...tata

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Wednesday

He's Sick

Early morning wake up by the phone,my bf msg me,ask me go his house accompany him lo,he sick liao,took mc rest at home ma,boring...So how tire oso hav to wake up liao,take a bath,changed den walk to bus station,reached his house oni i remember i haven take breakfast,so simply had sum bread there lo...dat time abt 11 liao lo,orelse?oni walk to thebus stop frm my house took me bout half hour,summore wait for the bus to come...He took medicine liao,felt sleepy so go back to take a nap lo,i noting to do so join him for a nap...kind a long nap leh,wake up ard 2,hehe...den cook sum noodle for lunch,watch a show(dun noe wad the show name) read sum doraemon n conan...ard 5 ba he went out buy sumting den come back say tire wan slp again,but i dun let him slp coz i wan go back liao,lazy walk liao so ask him send me home lo...reached home daddy back liao,he playing pangya,i watch awhile den go take a bath n go watch TV le...ard 8 i wan on9 de but com is using by them,my parent n my sis,i think my bro got use awhile oso ba...so i watch TV lo,disney channel--the haunted mansion den CSI,my fav...finish CSI go upstair computer canot use yet,my sis palying maple(hmm,quite long din play liao)n my mum using oso...waited for awhile my sis wan to slp le so is my turn to on9,n here write blog...my fren on9,secondary skol fren,she send me a file (msn) ask me help her c wether her translation smooth or not...so long din use malay leh,suddenly nid to translate sumting frm english to malay,not really use to it liao,thk so long la me...she nid it 2nite so hav to 'gambateh' lo,spent sum time to help her...so hav to go liao,tata

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Tuesday

Woke up ard 8 2day coz last nite slp early...on9 liao,browsing for music,forgot change my msn statute(still set as appear off9),saw dear on9 but awhile oni so msg him lo,he say he goin out 2day so not on9 le...den i start looking my photo album,to make my slide show...looking at those photo,recal so many memories,remember wen i was standard 5,a boy who like me,always follow me n buy my breakfast for me,i oni noe he like me the day b4 i left the skol o.0

I remember the first time i found out sum ppl can b gd with u infront of u,like u r her very good fren but talking sumting bad behind u...The first nite i spent without my family was the BBQ nite(last day in SRJKC Yak Chee)...The first guy i like is i was 12...

Experience changes,coincidence too...i meet my standard 5 best fren wen i was 14 in SMKPP...Had sum quarrel(huge quarrel) on same yr...Felt betrayed,lonely n heartbroken the next yr...Felt useless too,u noe...I remember my family trip to Thailand-Phuket Island,the day i stay at hotel alone is the most pleasure time i had...The moment had my SPM result,the sadness,the tear dat i hide so hard,the face dat pretending to be happy...

Those days in TARC Hostel,my first love start there too...The pressure a grp leader hav n the lesson of socialing...Those days dat i lost myself,making choices dat i regrete...The nite i made a huge decision n now end up im a law student...So many sweet n sorrow memories,so many lessson i had learned,so many heartbroken nites,so many depress time,so many regretes n so many cheerful days...

All the smile,the tears,the anger playing in my mind...Tears falling down frm my eyes,is bcoz im sad,is bcoz im happy,is bcoz...Those days dat i miss so much but i hav to move on,there is more infront of me...

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Monday

Template

Woke ap,had sum breakfast den start on9 le...browsing blogs,edit my frens blogger(juz change color n add a small pic oni,tis not a prob for me liao)however cant add song for her blog coz the code i hav is javascript but her blog haven convert to javascript de,maybe next time ba,wen i noe more i help her edit lo...now my own oso haven done yet,still got sum probs dat i dun noe how to edit,stil nid time to learn lo...ard 11 ba,vic on9 le,but he nid acc his mum go renew passport so v chat awhile oni...the whole day i was keep trying n trying with the blog,ard 5 dad back,me,my sis n my dad 3 play pangya(diff com la)...daddy win liao,me last,sob...after dat 1 game i off9 go take bath den eat dinner n wait my bf come...but bout 8pm he cal say he not coming le,so i on9 again,find song(vic gave me the music code website le),hmm...dun noe wad song to put leh,the song i wan dun hav(puzzle of my heart)...11.30 my bf call,he say he feel sick wan sleep early liao,so din talk much lo...n now me here blogging...2molo cont again lo with the template...erm...i think 2/3 more days can liao ba...ok lo...bb

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Sunday

boring movie

So long din wake up ard 8 liao,2day hav to coz my bf say wan go mid valley...Sunday ma,traffic at shopping complex very jam de,summore hard to find parking de...so nid to be early...he reached my house ard 10 ba,i went to his house 1st,nid to change car,stay at his house for awhile la...he told me last nite his dog(bobby) very naughty,went out the house dun wan come back,he go wait for few times bobby still run away so he lock bobby outside the gate last nite...at mid valley,v watch dragon tiger door---tis show,erm,graphic not bad la but the story line not dat good lo...kind a 'bu he li' lo...i was freezing in the cinema n my bf too,very cold leh...ard 6 reach home liao,saw my aunt'car,they drop my 2 sweet cousin here...im so tire,no energy play with them la,so i go take a nap but not for long lar...too noisy le,how to sleep?ard 8 my aunt back frm church liao,with my little cousin(samuel)...so funny,he take his handkerchieve den go mop ard mthe floor n sum furniture,LOL,i thk he learn frm his mum ba,dun noe leh...v all watch TV show till 11 den my aunt go home liao,n i on9 lo...hmm,dun noe dear wad time on9 leh?few days din chat with him on9 liao...

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Saturday

kongkongsea

I wakeup ard 10 ba,b4 dat I heard my mum come in n said ‘no 1 accompany me for yoga again’,dat time I was halg awake half sleep de…den I on9 browse web for sum pics n paijia find me in msn,he seng me a video clip—the girls fight in sabah ba or Sarawak huh?dun remember leh..he oso seng me a song frm Tokyo drift,I dun really like dat song la…den my sis n mum wan use pc so I go read a novel—it is a ‘zhe xue shu’,I used to read tis typr of novel last time de…ard 4 my cousin come visit my grandpa,wah my little nephew so cute leh,i din carry him,2months+ oni,I abit scare lar…ard 6 took a nap den wake up on9 check email liao…asiasoft send me a invitation code for the new game—kongkong sea…so I dl the game n try lo…ok ok oni lar,abit sianz leh the game…afterdat I join my mum for a show---wo zuo yank an dao gui—abit funny but sad oso lo…

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FAILURE

I was trying to edit my background,however i failed to make it as wad i wan...with the sample template frm vic i did manage to change the background n add in the 'banner'( the place show u weither the webpage loading is complete/or it has error)..beside i did found a sample script to make the effect like 'raining/snowing' in simple image dropping all around,however i couldnt change the image (the image bacground do not in transparent,dun noe how to make it is)...hmm...tried to rearrange the place for those text to appear...the entries is not in the a 'drop down box'...and so on but i failed...im suckz!!!haiz...i had draft a sample of the background i wan it to be o.0 by using com lar...however stil dun noe how to make it as like the background...vic say he try ask rain to help me,erm,if rain free hope she can help me ba...im goin to faint looking at those script n code etc liao... Sob

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Thursday

Copy n Paste

vic 2day come m'sia,he said he wil buy a m'sia line n msg me ard 9 last nite,so wen i woke up ard 9 i din lai chuang le,dun wan be wake up by phone ma...but betwork prob he oni send me msg ard noon,later den he got cal me,v tok awhile oni coz network prob again(no line)... along all tis time i was browsing for java script example,did find sum dat i nid,however not all really work la,i keep copy n paste all those script to my blogger template den view(i create a total new blog space so if got prob oso nvm),keep trying n trying til i get wad i nid...hehe...quite ok liao my template but not done yet so i din really change my blog lo...stil got alot to learn n edit leh...the main thing i haven edit is the backfround song,i found the scrit to edit this but couldnt find any website dat can giv the 'http' for the song de...vic say he noe 1 website but he couldnt remember,so i hav to wait til he go back spore oni can get the website ba...ard 3 pc so lag n im tire so i go take a nap,den bout 5.30 vic msg me say he arrived at ipoh liao,take a bath den on9 again,cont searching wad i nid for blogger template...atlast found the web to create slideshow,get it frm rain's blog de..my bf got cal me ask wan go 'pasar malam' or not but i dun wan,lazy go out la...later nid to cal him,v both everynite sure wil cal/msg de...ok lo...wan go try c can find the http for song or not while waiting vic giv me the website...tata...

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Wednesday

So blur

As usual wake up hav my breakfast den on pc liao,but 2day nid to go my bro skol bring him back,he say he feel sick,so i hav to walk there lo...den come back sit infront de pc n start printing those mantainence agreement dat my dad wan(bought new printer-ribbon liao)...vic on9 liao,chat with him awhile den he go train ranonline le,ms mantainence so cant play,i log in vic blogger copy his template,wan learn how to edit the template ma...found out rain use java script de,i din browse tis code b4 so in order to be able understand more i start browsing webpage for this...ard 2 start thundering le,start pc kana thunder so i off pc n go slp liao..hehe...woke up daddy back,he playing pangya(as long as is golf all he interested de) so on another com continue browsing...hmm,got understand a bit la but stil blur n confuse leh,haiz...den vic nid go skol liao n my bro wan use com,so i stop liao do eat dinner n wait for my bf come...watch CSI with him,ard 11 he go home le n i on9 again lo...

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Tuesday

So Noob

I was lazy 2day,so slowly wake up had breakfast den on9,vic on9 early 2day,kind a surprise for me…I on ms 1st n let the char stay there n I go browse web liao,vic find me chat awhile den oni he on ms,I din noe my char died wen he was there liao,I check back in ms found out he afk le n me died!!so hav to walk few map again back to the place I was n afk again,go back web,2nd time im back in ms,found out I almost die again,luckily vic ady back…phew…v train awhile oni den he nid to off liao,Alvin wan use com do homework o.0 I oso stop playing ms liao,went to read blog n browse sum info to edit my blogger template,dizzy looking at it n make me felt im dumb!!!cant understand at all,haiz….so I start using coreldraw edit pictures,not use with the programe so waste me a lot of time to change the pic to the way I wan…after all tis stuff so headache,since thinking a lot so I go hav a nap til evening…den I read a novel – zhuo gui (ghost story), not scary de,a bit comedy…Daddy is here I ask him to look at the template c wether he noe or not but daddy say he not sure oso ask me man man yan jiu >.<

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