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Monday

My 1st day of referal

2dy is the 1st day of my referal exam....so long din wake up so early,so sleepy,but not dat nervous yet till i reached there n saw my criminal law lecturer,haha,immediately got panic liao,i always get scare wen c him de, dun noe y.....criminal paper,i noe tis subject quite well lar...not done my answer so well lo,i think so,not having enuf time to write,seem all anwer hanging half way de,after exam finish oni i realise there is sumting i wrote on the question paper but i forgot to discuss bout it wen i answering,omg,can pass or not leh?my fren ask me how many pages i wrote,i say 4 pages for each question.she say den i should be fine de,as long as i did talk bout the related issue,not rubbish lar...but i dun noe leh,dun really hav the confidence,i couldnt manage to finish well with my last question,so dun even ask me i got check back or not,no TIME,damn,exam,always not enuf time,but my lecturer say usually those say not enuf time de is because they do noe alot or another typr is that they wasted alot of time on sumting irrelated,so which tyoe i am?hehe...left it to u all...
i admit i din study dat much b4 my exam,so the next paper i dun noe whether everyting will be fine,coz now the moment im writting this blog,i actually in sum1 office waiting for my dad to finish his job,the uncle c me so bore so let me use the pc to on9 de,and for ur notice i actually sitting on the boss desk,haha....OMG me sitting on a boss chair,hmm it will be good if oni i do earn much oso,hehe... :) (n i think i saw one of my secondary skoll clasmate at there,wen having lunch with dat uncle)
Hope my 2molo exam will be fine....pray for me guys...oh ya i actually met my ex-alevel classmate in the exam hall,she failed her criminal law n her CLS...so oso nid refer back 4 paper,hope she can get through too...

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My cousin's wedding

Saturday dat day is my cousin's wedding,so on friday night v went to the condo she rented,help around someting,her mother n her mother's relative here too,i dun like them,cant help it,so i was trying to keep away frm them all night,but still have to respect as she is my cousin's mother...went home late,ard 3am oni slp den 6am nid wake up le,nid prepare,b4 8am hav to be there,'sister' ma...a busy day,ger prepare with the stuff nid,help take care children awhile,help my cousin handle those 'ang pau'...wasnt a happy day actually...wen those groom side brother arrived,as a tradition play awhile lar,v set few games ady,start with they hav to finish up a bottle of coke in 2 mins,oni asking them to do tis ady waste alot of time,they r not willing to accept challenge,keep trying to rush in,at the end they do drink it but half of it they pour away le,like v dun noe,all of them so rude,not gentlemen at all,my small cousin so scare u noe,one of them like 'stunt'...never saw ppl liddat de,open the door liao,those brothers rush in,thr groom still standing outside,OMG...den b4 c the bride,tradition too,must give ang pau to us(the sister) here bargain so long,actually im ok with it lar,juz the amount to little,the bride herself in the room say not ok,ask them to add somemore,u noe wad the groom do?he go sit down eat,wt...even one ringgit oso dun willing to raise,but at the end his aunt say add lar,dun waste time ady...

Wen exchanging ring,he ask a question,'ni yang wo ma?' yalar is like joking,but how can a guy say dat to his gf/wife de...is not rite...n dats oni one part of it lar,dun wan mention all...afterdat v sister hav to go to the groom's house,go by those brothers car,tradition oso,omg...these guys,haiz...ppl wedding day lar,come on,dey race btw themself,keep cutting each other,until the bride's car left behind,sh*t...i never so mad with stranger de...but they really ar...wad i wrote is not dat all oni,k...the car so smelly,disco music,bad words,drive fast(think they michael schumacer liddat)my sister so scare,she tell after the day ended...this guy somemore think they so 'good','good looking'....wan to try flirting with us,come on,not good looking nvm,but the attitude,if ask me giv mark ar,-100!!!Really feel like shout to them 'Go to hell lar',but i din lo...

Later dinner oso im so not happy with the groom n his fren,even his own parent oso feel embarares liao,my mother tell de,she saw their face...wan ask the groom come take photo with my family,oso so hard,everyone waiting for him,he ar,oni remember his fren,keep talking to them,take photo with them,wen i go call him,i stood there for 1 mins,waiting,his fren dun even bother to stop,keep calling him take photo with them,not respecting the old,having them to wait...Haiz....im worry my cousin lar,how is her life will be after tis,is so obvious,her husband is not mature,he is not good!!!Haiz...i been scolding those jerk frm starting,hehe...wad to do lar...i really hate those jerk lar...if can i ady give them a slap,wen they try to flirt with Olivia,my little cousin,i stop them,they say 'u all not easy to treat ma',oh man,then she small u can play play with her lar,dun forget v here too,v wil protect her!!!okok lar...dun wan to scold liao...tata...

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Saturday

The lost feelings

Tis fews days sucks!!!But noting really bad lar...last nite,mum say sry to me,i abit shock,v were looking at a book full with short poem n skecth by my parents,& the skoll chinese society magazine of mine last time i did with my frens,lots of memories,den suddenly mum say she wanted to say sry to me long time le...she say sry coz she did not really personally took care of me last time...those hard days my family had b4 the birth of my sis,dad lost job so mum must work,dats y i become closer to daddy...sumtimes mum will jealuos,but noting she can do to fix it...Most of the time dad bath me,play with me,erm...i dun really remember much...i oni noe the 1st time i eat my mum cooking i ady teenager,if im rite 15/16 yrs old ba...Long ago i always jealous with my frens,dey hav their mummy prepare them to skol,made food for them,fecth them home,& so...Mum felt sry for tis too,u noe...i remember the time dat i always sitting alone on the balcony,cant go join those kids at the playground,i can oni look at them,mum & dad say sry again,couldnt bring me to playground,coz their nid to finish the housework n dinner(dad cook de),mum say im very good gal,i oni ask them to bring me down for twice oni...dad say dat place like my jail,the balcony,lolx...i do remember tis days,i was at nanny house morning,alone too,den go home,lock at balcony till my parent finish the works...There is alots more...there is time i felt to run away frm home,alots of time jealous with my sister n brother,there hav alot of things dat i din get last time,for example my parent concern with the homework...Mum oni ask me how i am doin after my PMR,n dats oni for few times...maybe is not a big deal for others,but i do felt sumting missing u noe...All these feelings had been kept for so long,till i had forgotten until last nite,looking back sum of the stuff b4...tear non-stop...

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Mooncake Festival

Yesterday still the same playing sims 2,1 of my uncle came back frm Johor live wif us for sum days,he keep asking me tis n dat,he wan make sure later at nite those children will hav fun...ard evening,my bf call,say he will join us,afterdat nid to clean up the praying thing,n prepare myself,my little cousin is here ady,Samuel got fever,is obvious he dun feel well,coz he replying slow wen we ask him sumting,n he keep rubbing his eyes,so my uncle send him home,he nid his own bed to slp...afterdat my relative come 1 by 1,i drink sum beer ady,den my fren call,ask me go his house,my bf ok with it,dad approved so go lo...b4 went out,Rebecca toking to my brother-in-law,she said she is having a hard time in school,but im in rush so din hav a tok wif her,she oni told me dat after i told dem im goin to heaven,hehe,juz jking ard...At fren's house dey trick me drink sakai i thk,not sure wad it is,oni noe is alcoholic,is look like mineral water k,n i nid water dat time,so din thk much n drink liao,after drank it oni i noe,omg im dizzy liao,the rest of the time i couldnt really join theie conversation liao,im not drunk juz dun feel well liao,nid rest...ard 1pm reach home,my uncle is drunk,i can noe wen he keep asking me stuff,he repeating,n im like answer machine,play back play back,i felt tire so find a chance go away liao...

Tis morning wake up ard 9,headache,feel like go back to slp but cant,nid help my cousin with sumting n later got clas ma...Sob,wish i can rest at home...2nite my bf there got dinner oso,he ask me join but i dun wan,Sunday morning got clas ma,if i join later not enuf slp again,so better dun go lo...yesterday wan read dear blog de,but webpage too slow so din,juz now oni read it...Dear,hope u wont mad at me lar,but to say the truth is,Rain misunderstood the point im saying the frenship thing,i say it not oni for Valkyrie but for u too,however,i said so not goin to interupt anymore but i feel like correct the unclear of my msg...A frenship nid to be appreciate,wen a frenship break down is not 1 pty not appreacing it oni,the other pty oso do not hav the strength to maintain it so it breakdown...sumting dat happen,will never b 1 person fault,there must be another feed back den oni there is arguement,fighting,& stuff...Is like dating,u like a person,the person nid to hav feeling with u too in order to date,rite?wen i start posted the 1st statement,my point is not to cause any fight there,i juz wanted to point out my view,not being hu side,really,maybe i should never say anyword,i was wrong & im sry,terrible sry....& sry if wad i wrote here hurt ur feeling,as wad u all say,is my blog,i say wad i wan...maybe my view is wrong again to u all,but nvm,i juz wan u all to noe...

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Tuesday

hIs been few days the internet connection running terribly slow,cant even run a webpage,so din on9 for sum times...kind a miss dear,so many days din chat with him,i wonder how his doin...& lih choon my fren,din write blog oso after she went to Manchester,i wonder is everthing settle down there,how her life there,any difficulties...My study din goes really well,still wondering whether the papers(notes) i hav is enuf?Worry wad will happen if i failed again...My bf said 'if failed again wad for keep studying,wads time,must well come out work as a clerk'...he dun understand the will of me wanted to complete my study,he dun noe how hard i wanted to try my best to continue my effort here,the path i chose,din really gain support frm him,y?but is ok,everybody have different view,atleast i still hav my family here...Oh ya,my sis,having PMR now,so she hav to study hard,but very soon will be over then she is relief,gd for her,i noe she will do it well,she always did well in her study...Last 2 days i juz installed back the sim 2,suddenly feell like building those houses,town,liddat...OMG,goin to exam but i keep doin others thing,u noe...i was writting story b4 tis,juz a rough script,din write well,maybe 1 day got a mood i may rewrite the story again,make it better--put a glos on it,sumting liddat...2day i went to work with my dad,he nid help,keep running up & down the stairs,get tis get there,not even noon i ady sweat so much,smelly smelly liao,im so hungry,din eat my breakfast,after done the work there den v hav lunch,afterdat went to another place for work den go Tesco buy stuff n went home...Reach home din even change i slept liao,tire...Now want go play sim liao,build sumting,tata...

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