Saturday
The lost feelings
Tis fews days sucks!!!But noting really bad lar...last nite,mum say sry to me,i abit shock,v were looking at a book full with short poem n skecth by my parents,& the skoll chinese society magazine of mine last time i did with my frens,lots of memories,den suddenly mum say she wanted to say sry to me long time le...she say sry coz she did not really personally took care of me last time...those hard days my family had b4 the birth of my sis,dad lost job so mum must work,dats y i become closer to daddy...sumtimes mum will jealuos,but noting she can do to fix it...Most of the time dad bath me,play with me,erm...i dun really remember much...i oni noe the 1st time i eat my mum cooking i ady teenager,if im rite 15/16 yrs old ba...Long ago i always jealous with my frens,dey hav their mummy prepare them to skol,made food for them,fecth them home,& so...Mum felt sry for tis too,u noe...i remember the time dat i always sitting alone on the balcony,cant go join those kids at the playground,i can oni look at them,mum & dad say sry again,couldnt bring me to playground,coz their nid to finish the housework n dinner(dad cook de),mum say im very good gal,i oni ask them to bring me down for twice oni...dad say dat place like my jail,the balcony,lolx...i do remember tis days,i was at nanny house morning,alone too,den go home,lock at balcony till my parent finish the works...There is alots more...there is time i felt to run away frm home,alots of time jealous with my sister n brother,there hav alot of things dat i din get last time,for example my parent concern with the homework...Mum oni ask me how i am doin after my PMR,n dats oni for few times...maybe is not a big deal for others,but i do felt sumting missing u noe...All these feelings had been kept for so long,till i had forgotten until last nite,looking back sum of the stuff b4...tear non-stop...
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