Friday
Why...
Why am I so careless?? Why I keep making all those silly mistake? I know it well I have this problem but why I still repeating this mistake again and again? I know I have no room to afford to make such mistake but I still doing it. Now I did such a silly mistake which bring a big consequence, I hate myself.
ES talk to me just now, she did not scold me but i really feel bad. She say Im good, I can understand thing quite fast, she like me, however I must take note my weakness and improve myself.
She did ask me something else, asking whether Im still staying with my bf and others.
I don't know what I should do anymore, to stay or move out. I know the reason why my parent asking me move out, at least I think i know. I understand why my bf want me to stay.
For me, staying here is okay. At this time, I felt that staying here would allow me being more able to commit myself to my work, I dont need spend time just to go out meet my bf, I dont need worry is he ok, is he home and bla bla bla...I dont need spend more money, I could save more and reach my goal faster. But the same time I need to struggle in my heart, with my parent. Anyway, when thing aint so right and I feel like running back home, I become stronger and felt better once seeing him and gave me reason not to do so.
It balance my inner self, that what I think. However, I just don't know what to do anymore.
My work, is been 3 weeks and I keep having mistake. I hate myself so much.....
|DREAMS WILL COME TRUE |
