Exam is coming but what is playing in my mind is 'I still got time', 'I wish to go somewhere else', 'I hope that this pressure will just go away' but the truth is exam is really close, I don't have time anymore. Go where? Where I want to be at? I have no idea. Why not just leave me alone, just alone, anywhere will do. Pressure will never go away, this go another come, hack it.
Our discussion going on intensively, we made a schedule and trying our best to stick with it. When I just reading the notes alone, I think is still okay but when discussing, my friend continuously trying out to approach a question, I felt so unsafe, I need more time to get this done but the same time I could think about the framework, even not in detail but roughly a skeleton answer for the question. However, I still feel that's not good enough. Maybe I shouldn't continue to follow my pace but to attempt question like my friend. If I do that, will I have enough time to memorise the substance? What to do?What to be done?I doing good enough?Should I change?Will what I did sufficient enough for me to get through this exam?Hack it.
My friend said something today; we been having exam for half year. Indeed is true if we count from the start of the coursework. From that day start, we been dragging ourself to get this done and get that finish. To make sure everything in time, everything is running well. Study, coursework, revision, exam and ancillary stuff.
I feel tire from all this, thought of continue study something after this degree while working but I guess I need a break before another begin. I need a break now but I can't let myself to at this moment, I felt so guilty after I spent the time for something other than study. I guess after the exam is over, I got to relax myself, set myself free. Like my friend says 'Die once and then come back and start all over again.'