Friday
Forcing myself not to Cry
Woke up early,wait for my dad back frm 'pasar pagi' to sent me to BAC...im so nervous,hope for the best but stil having bad feeling...n wad u noe,my bad feeling really come true,my result is so unexpected,really very unexpected...4 subject,pass 2 failed 2...u noe y unexpected,is bcoz i failed for my contract law paper,the subject i work so hard on it but it is the worst i did for tis exam, but the paper i tot i should fail i passed it,haha...actually couldnt laugh, u noe...wen i ask for my result,is Mr Rajan giv it to me,our BAC owner,he din hand over my result slip to me 1st,instead ask me cal Ms Meera,my contract law lecturer(she oso 1 of the owner of BAC) to hav a tok...Ms Meera is so shock, she told me wen she saw my result,coz she did not expect i wil fail her subject,i always do well during the tutorial,even now i nid to resit for all 4 subject,she say she dun really worry bout me,she stil say i wil be fine,n trust me dat i can handle again all 4 paper in tis yr,ask me to resit for the refferal,dun nid wait for next yr wor...i felt so sad,u noe,i let her down,she trust me so much but i fail to make her please...she told me i can get all the help i nid,she wil tok to my other lecture,ask dem spent time with me,one to one,especially for public law,coz i never had confident with tis paper(but i passed it liao n dats the another unexpected result,i kind a let go tis subject wen exam de but stil i get thru tis not the other 2,oh my,is tis a jk?)Ms Meera oso advise me try to apply for PTPTN loan,so i dun nid worry bout the money,i tok to dad bout tis le,he say try lo...b4 i leave BAC,Ms Meera worry bout me leh,she keep asking whether im fine or not,even ask me how im goin back home,i told her my dad waiting for me,i thk she saw my hand is shacking bah,dats y she so worry i couldnt take it...i wan to cry looking at the result,but i keep forcing myself not to...So,dats it for my holiday,is over liao,LLB Part 1 lecture starting next week,Ms Meera say since i want to refer back the eam tis yr,i can start attend the clas for Part 1,but she permit me to skip the tutorial clas til the refferal is over,so i hav more time for dat...to tell the truth,i hav no confident le,im ady start nervous now,oni left 2 months for me to prepare,im worry i couldnt do it again,my parent din say much bout my result after dey noe.dey noe im very sad liao,dey try not to presure me more...mum ask whether wan her to cancel the holiday trip on October ma?accompany me stay at home since im not joining le,but i told her is ok...i prefer to be alone prepare for my referal...
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